Nate & Jackie suspected that Jackie was pregnant towards the middle of Feb. They tested on 03-06-09 to find that it was positive. When I saw those 2 pink lines cross I was overwhelmed with joy. I was concerned on how we where going to raise a child fiancially but those thoughts went away quickly. Nate was silent and then a big smile came across his face. He looked at me and said baby we are going to be parents. This pregnancy was not a shock we suspected it. A few days later we went to the health deparment to confirm it. And yep I sure was pregnant. 6 weeks and 5 days. 2 days passed and I was having slight cramps so I went to the ER. Everything was fine it was only growing pains. The ultrasound confimed I was 7 weeks and my due date was 10-31-09. I could not stop smiling and giggling there was my little peanut growing inside of me. Weeks passed of me holding my belly all the time, daddy rubbing talking and kissing it 24/7. Our familys where so excited my mom was busy buying stuff while his family was convinced it was twins even though the ultrasound only showed 1 baby. They all reassured me that it would be hard but they would help in any way. On the morning of 4-12-09 I woke up with my mom having the camera in my face. She said get up let me take some pictures of my grand baby. She begn to take pictures. Hours passed and my Fiancce Nate and I left for school. When we reached school we went straight to dinner. While sitting at the table in the cafe I had some sharp pains that took my breath I then noticed my pnties felt wet , Nate said go make sure you are not bleeding.I was 11 weeks and 5 days. I came back sceaming its blood its blood. We ran out of the cafe with our plates on the table jumped in the car and headed to the hospital. My mom was trying to calm me down on the phone while I was driving but I knew in my heart what was going on. We sat in the waiting room crying untill they called us to the back. They ran test after test and then the DR. told me he wanted to do an ultrasound. By time the ultrasound tech got there my mom had arrived from our house an hour away. She pushed me into this room and began the US. She immediatley turned the screen away so my fiancee and I couldnt see it. I started crying, my mom asked her is the baby OK and the lady shook her head. That was it our little angel had went to heaven to be with its Grandaddy. I had concieved only 10 days after I had lost my dad.
We think about our child every day we wonder what it would of looked like, if it was a boy or girl, how much it would of weighed and a bunch of other things but we do know that sweet Angel Baby you are very much loved and missed.
