My honey....this weekend marked an entire year you've been gone. I miss you still. I love you still. Life is moving forwards, to what is still an unknown, but you are always with me........
just thinking 'bout ya honey. and missing all the ways we were crazy and sane with each other. :)
This message says 'give a heart', but he already has my heart, and always will. I will always love him and remember him with good memories I have of him. All throughout my childhood, his smile lit my day with sunshine. No one can ever tell me otherwise. Love you, my dear uncle.
I finally managed to get Ray, Mr. Stubborn, to agree to go to the hospice. It was so cool that his room had French doors.....so we wheeled his bed out there on the balcony and let him enjoy his last moments outside; last fresh air, last sun on his skin, last being under the sky, smelling flowers. He so loved the sun. Little Leo Lion!
He only went out that one time...faded away too fast to go...
At one point when Ray was so ill, he was asleep...then opened his eyes to see me standing there. Soft voice asked me, "Am I dying?" I could only nod a yes. Tried so hard not to break down crying. And he merely said "Okay". Small nod. I mouthed an I love you, since he'd already lost all his hearing. A smile, and his eyes closed as he fell back into that drugged sleep. I walked away to the other ...
I remember that when Ray when out of town to work he'd always return and have a gift for me....whether it be a frig magnet to add to our collection or a t-shirt or something. I kept telling him to stop buying me things. But he was so stubborn...couldn't budge him from that. I will never underestimate his capacity for giving; it was so part of him. I deeply appreciate all his gifts. Especially t...
Honey...the holiday season is setting in and I keep remembering you won't be with me for it. Our little Christmas tree, the tradition I continued from my own fam of getting a new ornament for each of us each year. So funny to hear ya moan while we roamed through Michael's. *grin*.....btw, where is yer fam? they've not been in contact with me for a long time. guess I must just be the wife of the...
Honey....our house went through closing today. I doubt anyone other than you or I would care. Makes me sad. And I wish you were here to help me through that sadness. Life is chaos without you, my knight, my rock, my oh-so-beautiful man.
I miss you so desperately. I hope I join ya soon. :) hah, don't get all upset...I told ya from the beginning you were stuck with me. *kiss*
oh yeah....hea...
the window is open in my heart
its ALL blown apart
and all I see and feel and hear is the wind blowing.....................
whispers...happy anniversary, my dear heart-hawk....*soft kiss*
our other Florida fam member, our pretty kitty girl, Sapphire, had to be put to sleep on 10/18 due to liver failure. she's buried here at my Mom's home in Texas.
and now...my entire Florida fam is gone....nothing, no words can truly speak to my deep sorrow.........missing you both!
